I was fresh into a breakup and I was a mess.
Actually, let me rephrase that: I had come to terms with the reality of a situationship I had with a guy and I was too much of a mess for what it had been.
I had tried to force a relationship with this guy I really liked and ended up with my heart broken and my feelings hurt. Can you imagine all of me begging for attention from some guy? I probably hadn’t seen He’s just not that into you yet. God knows if that would have made a difference.
Anyway, so after that, I started on this journey of self-doubt. This guy had been the one to initiate everything. He showed interest which I later on reciprocated and its as if the moment I started expressing interests homeboy started backing off. So my thinking after it all came to an end was that there was something off about me because he liked me initially then got to know me and saw something he didn’t like. How many days did I sit in confusion, trying to pinpoint the exact moment it went wrong? Trying to figure out what exactly was wrong with me?
One too many.
I remember speaking to God, confused and bewildered. This guy literally had all the qualities I liked to have in my man…… plus he even liked African music …annnd he didn’t see me not being Nigerian to be a problem. And he was a nice guy, he was caring and kind and there was definite chemistry.
The reality of it all
As much as two people can fit well together or have a connection, they both have to make that choice to be with each other. I do not believe in soul mates. You meet people who more or less suit you and depending on the attraction and other important factors like time, and choice you may or may not get to be with them.
When both people make the choice it’s great. When it’s one-sided it hurts. When you feel the need to prove your worth, it’s not worth it. Take the L and leave.
I thought this guy was the shit. He was it for all that mattered to me. So when it ended I couldn’t see myself meeting anyone better. I thought after that anyone else I met would be below that level.
But here’s one thing about God; he’s not a God of settling. He’s a God of more and in abundance
In whatever area that you have experienced a loss, there are better days coming. The guy you already imagined to be the father of your babies will not even compare to the man you raise your children with. That Job you did not get, was not as you thought the breakthrough in your career, that job that you will get will open so many more doors for you. You do not even know the half of it.
God is good. God is love. He knows how to gift his children. He doesn’t give bad gifts.
For everyone who asks receives; the one who seeks finds; and to the one who knocks, the door will be opened.
9 “Which of you, if your son asks for bread, will give him a stone? 10 Or if he asks for a fish, will give him a snake? 11 If you, then, though you are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father in heaven give good gifts to those who ask him!
God will never let what you lost to be the best you ever had!
I believe that 100%. I am now in a relationship with an amazing guy who gives me all the things I begged for with the past guy freely. He makes me realize how much I was willing to settle. He never fails to show me how much he appreciates me and loves me. All those things I was looking for in a man he has exceeded my expectations. My needs are always considered. My talents are encouraged and my dreams are supported. I am built up when I am insecure and doubtful. He’s intentional towards me and is transparent with me.
All of this is to show that yes, God will never let what you lost to be the best you ever had!
He will come through with the hook up always.
Food for thought: (Hosea 6:1, Jeremiah 29:11, Jeremiah 30:17, 1 John 5:4, 1 Peter 5:10, Matthew 6:33, Zechariah 9:10, Psalm 71:20-21)